i'm an open book.

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Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:46:15 -0500

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zellezbellez:Invented Sex (remix) by Trey Songz feat. Usher and...

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:45:40 -0500

zellezbellez:Invented Sex (remix) by Trey Songz feat. Usher and Keri Hilson

"Everything is always alright in the end. If it’s not alright, then it’s not the end."

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:42:43 -0500

““Everything is always alright in the end. If it’s not alright, then it’s not the end.””

I feel like the workload and the things I've been enduring lately,

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:42:14 -0500

I’m finally hitting a light at the end of this tunnel. If not the final light, at least the bad times are letting up a little bit.

I have a brand new macbook, I’ve had a little less homework lately, my family situation is slowly improving, I got a brand new touch-screen camera today, I’ve had time and money to go out with friends, it’s the holidays, and MOST importantly, I’m going to SAN DIEGO in 2 days and a wake-up. Do you know how amazing I feel right now? Good things make me love life. It’s so worth it to feel this happy.

I didn't do any spanish homework. I think I'm just going to go to sleep.

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 23:14:33 -0500

I’m pretty tired. It’s whatever. If I copy someone’s tomorrow, I do. If not, just goodniiiiight :)

03 days and a wake up.

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 23:12:53 -0500

I will be in SUNNY SAN DIEGO.

H0lllllllllllla. As sad as I am about leaving some people for two weeks, I’m insanely happy for where I am headed. I need this trip. And as much as I think poorly of myself, I actually feel like I deserve this. I’ve dealt with A LOT this year. More than some know. Maybe more than anyone knows. Not saying I haven’t had good times, not saying some people haven’t had it harder, just saying, for me, 2009 was the best and worst of times. I need to let it out with a bang. Bring in 2010 with the same bang. Make 2010 that much better, make it amazing. I feel like it’s going to be my year. I graduate. I (hopefully) will be moving to NYC. I’m starting my future. The opportunities and endless.

Carpe diem. Well, I’m going to carpe the year :)

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Wed, 16 Dec 2009 23:02:35 -0500

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sheisdeadagain:jayobyrne: kid cudi - pursuit of happiness...

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 23:01:41 -0500

sheisdeadagain:jayobyrne:

kid cudi - pursuit of happiness (featuring mgmt and ratatat)

7 things to 7 people.

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 23:00:55 -0500

I haven’t done one of these in a while, I need to get some things out. These always make me feel better.

-I can’t believe you. I just can’t. You’re the bitch I always feared you were. I tried to pretend you weren’t, tried to make things work, but it didn’t. If you mess with someone close to me, you mess with me. If you threaten me, there WILL be other people there for me and you will have to accept that. Blood is thicker than water, but I don’t care. You crossed a line. I don’t need your money, your apologies (which you haven’t even given), anything from you. Maybe someday we can mend this. I hope to. I hope that one day I can be the bigger person and forgive you, because I know you’re already too set in your selfish and passive aggressive ways. I can’t believe the turn our relationship took, but I really am learning to move past it. I can’t let you bring me down.

-I think our friendship has grown times 10 the past couple weeks. Actually, just after this past weekend. I think the fact of what we did to ourselves, what we did for each other, how we dealt with the aftermath, only brought us closer. I’m still scared though, we were pretty reckless. I’m scared how easy it was to do that to myself. Seeing you like that made me want to cry. I love how we always make it through things though. We’ve laughed, cried, and done just about everything together. We’ve had arguments and kept secrets, but in the end those things only brought us closer. Our friendship is stronger than pettiness, than rumors, than mistakes. Best friendship is something A LOT more than that, and I’m glad we have it. I’m glad we’re there for each other. You’re seriously like family to me now, and I really love having you there.

-Coquette. I know you’re reading this. And if you aren’t, then whatever. But I’m sure you at least GLANCED at it. So this ones for you. I’m naming you so you know. I love you dear, very much. We’re seriously so similar, it scares me A LOT of the time. Other than the physical differences (yanno, that height & nationality issue), we’re almost like the same person. We’ve actually learned a lot of the same life lessons, just in different ways, and although we grew up a little differently, and have dealt with different things, I feel like we have some kind of mutual understanding, similar thought processes, just like ESP or something about like, everything. You really get me. You’re an amazing listener. And you’re DEFINITELY my right hand bitch. Plus, I love shopping and eating and talking and writing notes to you. I’m so glad we’ve gotten so close, I don’t know how it would have been possible to survive senior year without you.

-BOY. Go away. I really like you. Too much. MUCH more than I should. I told you that this summer and it seemed like you brushed it off. I told you a few weeks ago and you said you liked me too, but we weren’t going to try because of a bunch of things. They made sense. All of it. It wouldn’t work. I know that. But this isn’t working. I had a moment of weakness, I attempted to talk to you again. Just to say hi. To catch up. I’m not texting you back anymore though. I can’t. My willpower definitely broke the other day, but today I’m trying to stay strong. I miss you too much, everything you’ve put me through hurts too much. I want you out of my life, but I know at least for a while you won’t be. Little things remind me of you and I hate it. I hate how much I let myself like you, how much I told you, how much of everything. Whatever. I know I need to move on. I just need you to let me do that.

-I didn’t kiss you that night. I know I didn’t. And if by some small chance I did, then I apologize. Being that messed up isn’t attractive, and you sure as hell don’t know my personality just judging from one night. This WILL NOT work. I do not like you. Leave me alone. Please. I want my earring back, and then I want you to stay away.

-I miss you so much. But things aren’t the same anymore. I wish you would stop talking to those people, the ones who just seem to be so awkward for me to talk to, or about. On one hand, I feel bad. I wish they could see that, could have taken the time to know that. One the other hand, I’m bitter. Because they DIDN’T care enough to take that time. Because you didn’t defend me. I don’t know. I didn’t need you to, but I just want you to know I would have done that for you. If me and you were reversed, roles switched in the situation, I would have stopped talking to them altogether. To me, that’s how much I care. It hurt that you didn’t. But it’s whatever now, I’m a better, stronger person because of that mess. I’ve moved on. I still miss you though, I still want you to be there for me. I still wish we talked more. You’re still my number one, that never changed. You kind of just hold that place by default, even if you aren’t always there, you still are.

-Things are so awkward now. Not like they weren’t awkward at the beginning of summer. Not like they didn’t change once you left. Not like once you came back we never spoke about it again. I wanted to, you know. I wanted to talk, but it kind of just ended. What was that even about ? Your moment of weakness ? Well, if either of us told the secret, then it would have blown up in our faces. I think about it almost every time I see you though. Nobody knows, but I know you think about it too. That’s why it’s so weird. So awkward. And then there’s this new thing. I haven’t said anything about it, but it’s there, lingering. I hate it. I want to forget about you. I want to address everything when I know there won’t be repercussions. That isn’t now though. There’s a time and place for everything, and I’m still waiting. I haven’t forgotten about you, about the good times. I’ll remind you someday. Just not now.

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Wed, 16 Dec 2009 22:38:47 -0500

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Wed, 16 Dec 2009 22:37:05 -0500

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Wed, 16 Dec 2009 15:59:19 -0500

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Going to go attempt some productivity.

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 14:51:10 -0500

sincerelykimbui:(via thecellardoor) Classy Norfolk, Va. I’m...

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 14:47:57 -0500

sincerelykimbui:(via thecellardoor)

Classy Norfolk, Va. I’m proud to call you home.

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Tue, 15 Dec 2009 22:42:28 -0500

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I've decided.

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 22:19:12 -0500

I want to go lay down and read and fall asleep.

So I think that’s what I’m going to do.
Magazines & warm blankets are calling my name.

I applied to college and studied for my psychology test. That’s good enough for one night :)

I just realized packing for San Diego is going to be a bitch.

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 22:08:05 -0500

I’m a terrible packer. TERRIBLE. I feel like I need everything in my suitcase, and I’m trying to pack EXTRA light to bring back presents for everyone, so yeah.. Looks like I’m going to be going through security for like 202348309482 hours since I’m going to have so much stuffed into my purse and carry-on. Airport security doesn’t like me anyways. The guys are always jerks. Like, THROW THAT WATER BOTTLE AWAY BECAUSE ITS SO DANGEROUS. Stfu already, do I look like I want to blow up the plane? No, I really don’t. I just want to stay hydrated, leave me aloneeee.

/end airport rant. haha.

i need to get back to this psychology stuff instead of worrying about packing now.

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Tue, 15 Dec 2009 21:58:05 -0500

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Studying for this test, crushhhhin on some chips & salsa from azteca.

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 21:55:18 -0500

I love living by a mexican restaurant. Haha.

himynameisali:woahitssarrah:haveheartcate: Ocean Avenue -...

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 21:51:11 -0500

himynameisali:woahitssarrah:haveheartcate:

Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard

I played the shit out of this CD.

i never had this cd : (

this is my all-time favorite song. ever. i remember when i bought this CD in california. i was SO stoked. sarah, do you have the files? if not, i can put them on mediafire for you.

i played the shit out of this CD too.